 This has been the longest week EVER so glad its the weekend! love you girlsss!  those late nights when you stay up so late just thinking about how it would feel to be held by the one that truly loves you. I didn't stop loving you, I just decided to stop showing it because no matter how hard I tried, you just wouldn't get it. He talked to her again, as friends. It's been a while, but his eyes were just as blue and his smile was just as bright as always. He made her smile, he made her fall in love, again.  I'm mistaken for a flirt when I'm friendly. I'm mistaken for a bitch when I'm blunt. I'm mistaken for sad when I'm alone. I'm mistaken for shy when I'm quiet. Quit assuming and get to know me. I'm not trying to lead you on. I just can't handle getting too attached to someone when I know I'm not planning on staying here. He left. After months and months of him claiming you were his everything, and the best thing that ever happened to him. I know it sucks, but maybe him leaving was a good thing. Maybe God knew you would never to able to walk away yourself, no matter how many reasons you had to. Maybe God knew that you deserved better, and you would never get any better until you learned to let him go. And if a guy could ever think of leaving you, that proves right there that he never deserved you anyways. because im not the kind of girl guys fall in love with. I hate the feeling when I find out something that I didn't want to know, and my heart sinks. And until you can't feel it anymore, the pain becomes the constant reminder that you still exist. Here's to the girls who aren't always okay, the ones who get mad at their friends over stupid things. The girls who stay strong and always strive to win even during the toughest battles. Who push guys away because they are afraid of commitment and getting hurt. The girls who don't let people in easily and once they do, they don't let them go until the others girl up. The girls like you and me. Whoever said 'what you don't know can't hurt you' was a complete and total moron. Because, for most people I know, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world. In life, no one has ever abused you more than you have abused yourself. Learn to love yourself, to live with yourself, and to finally find what's best for yourself instead of what quiets the tears. You're going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it's always their actions you should judge them by. It's actions, not words that matter. A guy out there was meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soulmate, the one you can tell your dreams to. He'll smile at you, but he'll never laugh at your heart. He'll brush the hair out of your eyes, send you flowers just because, stare at you during the movies even though he paid ten bucks to see it. He'll call you to say goodnight or just because he is thinking of you. He'll look at your eyes, and tell you how beautiful you are when you smile. And for the first time in your life, you'll believe it. - favorite quote. Always hold your head up high, even if on the inside, you're about to cry. Pretend that nothing's wrong at all. Close your eyes before you fall. If you can't see it, it's not there. This is life and it's not fair. I want a guy that will make me happy. Someone that will make me smile when I hear his voice. Someone that will love me unconditionally. I want a guy that will make my friends think, "she's happy again." -LOVE. this one. People said I've changed so much. Well here's the honest truth. I grew up. I stopped letting people push me around. I learned that you can't always be happy. I accepted reality. Every girl fantasizes about finding her Prince Charming. But if that Prince refuses to come...a girl has to take matters into her own hands. People ask me if I believe in forever. And I can't help but sit back and laugh. With the way my life is going sweetie, I barely believe in tomorrow.  |